the really shitty thing about being told that youre smart your whole entire life is that as soon as you dont understand something you just kind of completely shut down and his this big shitty crisis because maybe youre not as smart as youve always been told
"I like drinking coffee alone and reading alone. I like riding the bus alone and walking home alone. It gives me time to think and set my mind free. I like eating alone and listening to music alone. But when I see a mother with her child, a girl with her lover, or a friend laughing with their best friend, I realize that even though I like being alone, I don’t fancy being lonely. the sky is beautiful, but the people are sad. I just need someone who won’t run away."
I thought about laying beside you tonight. Your arm wrapped around me as we lay together so easily. I thought about waking up and kissing you. You wrapping your arms around me and begging me not to get up. Our sleepy kisses continue despite insisting that we need to get up. And then I remember moments whether good or bad all must end. And so I yearn for another such moment with you.